THE SHAPE OF YOUR LIFE
How do you see your life? What kind of shape is it in?
Is it something to endlessly enjoy, to entertain you, teach you, or plan, to start and finish all the goals you’ve set? Isn’t that what life is for?
What about life today- after your cancer, treatment, illness, or debilitating flare-up?
DAY TO DAY SHAPES
Until just recently, getting through the last weeks of hot weather shaped my decisions. Stay in the air conditioning, or go out in the air-conditioned car? Today, staying warm is shaping my life.
While I was staying in, blog-writing and card-making for ministry fashioned my days and nights. Sure. They’re my passion. Attending and helping the lady’s bible outreach meetings shaped my life. Another passion.
SHAPES AND SEASONS
Yet, really, I wasn’t allowing God’s gifts in me or around me mold into who I was supposed to be in this season. I didn’t slow down and smell the roses. I didn’t let delightful colors and images permeate my inner self; all made by God. I didn’t let the musical whispers from God indwell me, or tune in to the sounds of children, birds, or nature. Opportunities to share His love were missed. I just wasn’t paying attention.
After surviving cancer and it’s after affects, many survivors claim a new grasp on life and new outlook and appreciation. I had that. Then life set in, and it was just an ebb and flow of continuity with no real shape. I lost that drive for purpose, gentleness, and gratitude for the richness in life.
STRETCHED OUT OF SHAPE
Funny how that happens. You get your life back after recovery or manage it with continuing health issues- and you treat it with kid gloves or you wrestle it into submission. Then you slowly lose your grasp. The elastic stretches out. You must be reminded from where your strength comes. From where Grace is distributed. From where your day to day, moment to moment breath is given.
God is my maker and He molds myself to His image. Sometimes, however, God has to throw the whole wad of clay back on the wheel, and shape me again. Perhaps this shaping of life is an ongoing project.
These days, I believe He is re-shaping me to be a good-news carrier of His grace. There is life after cancer! For a time, His plan was to give me a rest and take me out of action. Then, in a new season, He formed a new plan for me that included different gifts and opportunities than the ones I used before. Spreading His love has just taken on a different shape than it had before.
This new plan looks more like the shapes of quieter moments, more humble responses, digging more into the scriptures, softer words, encouraging others through greetings, and being a reflection of Jesus. It will accomplish the same purpose as the previous plan if God ordains it.
He has gifted me sights, sounds, colors, and scents. God lead us into a new church family- joyful and purposeful. Our Autumn has been a long season and mild; full of colors and scents. Winter is just beginning its days with a new set of blessings and challenges. I have new responsibilities for this time in my life, including caring for my mom now living with us. That shapes my days, and the responses of my heart.
THE SHAPE OF THE FUTURE
Sometimes, the shape of the future is scary too. I don’t know just what that looks like. It’s possible, God will lead me through other storms or over challenging mountains. He may also shape me to be stronger, wiser, and more prepared. God is my maker and my guide.
There is one thing I can count on in the shape of tomorrow and the day after: the shape of His hand holding my life, and your life. That will never change.
I Corinthians 12: 4 “There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them. 5 There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. 6 There are different kinds of working, but in all of them and in everyone it is the same God at work.” / 11 “All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he distributes them to each one, just as he determines.” / read v.13-31
“See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands…” Isaiah 49:16
April Boyer (c) 2017